Ryota Mitarai (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
lovedanime) wrote2018-08-27 11:12 pm
lovedanime) wrote2018-08-27 11:12 pm
diary
A fuzzy rug dominates the floor of Mitarai's room. The bed is made and hosts a blue stuffed animal. There's one chair behind the desk, which has a very tidy array with multiple types of paper and pencils including three different mechanical ones. The centerpiece is a notebook.
Most apprentices have seen the notebook Mitarai got at the first afterparty thrown by Monika. The flame animations, perhaps, or some exchanges with Rantaro. What's less obvious is that these pages all come from the latter part of the notebook... the first few pages of the notebook are sequentially occupied by letters.
Most apprentices have seen the notebook Mitarai got at the first afterparty thrown by Monika. The flame animations, perhaps, or some exchanges with Rantaro. What's less obvious is that these pages all come from the latter part of the notebook... the first few pages of the notebook are sequentially occupied by letters.
Week 4 Tuesday Night
It's Tuesday now. I've remembered more of the Final Killing Game. Is it worth writing down at this point? We lost many others, including Kirigiri-san. Naegi is just fine, somehow. He got a hold of himself and confronted Munakata-san. You weren't with him... I fear the worst, but we had already moved on. I wonder what it's like in the mind of Naegi Makoto. Before meeting him, I never understood how viewers could overlook the difference between anime series drawn on twos and threes.
We received a new incentive. They imposed a disability on each of us, such as muteness or blindness, to be lifted once someone murdered. I lost my ability to see color, which is hardly debilitating compared to some of the others, but it has forced me to take a break from making anime. Strictly speaking I could continue linework in this condition, but I might as well only stay up working when I can be fully productive. It's agonizing being this useless... The only alternative is volunteering to help the others more impaired by this event. Kim-kun might laugh if he saw me now: Filling the void not with anime but helping the weak in simple ways.
I have my theories about what's going on here. They refuse to expose us to D-756 directly, in fact preventing us from doing so as much as possible, so they can't intend us to literally build up antibodies. That said, D-756 obviously provides an intense, direct psychosomatic stimulus. The Administration can provide similarly intense psychosomatic stimuli. Therefore, they probably intend to translate our psychosomatic reactions to these stimuli into some kind of curative steroid. You know the techniques I use to make my anime the best - red to induce anger, ocean wave sound effects to calm the viewer. Likewise the removal of memories, the restoration of personality, that's all possible in the New World Program. I really think they have similar ways to mimic the instinctive revulsion of seeing a corpse or ghost. This direct action mechanism of complex reasoning is why Apprentices without human biology are still affected, even without "neurons" that would react to the ingestion of a psychoactive drug or neurodegenerative disease.
Speaking up about my expertise isn't so wise in this group, though. The last few meetings I've tried to articulate my ideas and gotten a lukewarm response to say the least. The precise consequences aren't safe to write down; suffice it to say I have reason to believe this peace won't last. You would know what to say that would bring harmony to the group. The future they need to reach for.
Respectfully,
Mitarai